I wasn’t entirely swept off my feet by this but I can truly say it had stirred some things deep within that are usually too deep to be even reached by anything, at all.

I found this thoroughly heartbreaking and I would have cried if I’m one of those who get moved so, so easily.

I have always imagined this, especially when I finally got around to reading the first book in the series, Twilight.

It seemed like one of the most probable probabilities out there as to why she was like that and he was like that although of course the facts in the novel rarely gave out bits that could actually make you end up with this solid conclusion.

Blame it to my imagination perhaps, since I was so much younger then, not just in physical or biological age, but more so in terms of, my mental age. I wouldn’t have used the word mental if only I have found something else, something that sounded better when you speak somehow out loud these things typed.

I felt like saying mental meant that I was somehow becoming delusional, coming up with these absurd hallucinations but finding out someone out there has written this is definite proof that I am still normal (our book in psychology defined hallucination as an illusion, a wrong perception, but under abnormal conditions such as when you’re under the influence of alcohol and drugs or when you’re physiological needs are not being catered to which are the most fundamental of all needs).

Eh, that’s it for now. I’ve just finished cutting my fingernails this morning and my fingers still hate it when I type (it kind of hurts, throbs) since I cut my nails as shorts as they can but I’ll have you know I’m really glad and I feel kind of awesome because even though I haven’t still gotten back my love for all sorts of reading and writing, I still got to let all of this out.

So I'm finally watching The Vampire Diaries. I kind of hate how everything started. I mean, well, you can't blame me, can't exactly help it now, can I, 'cause comparing it to Twilight, I guess I like the latter's start better. But I think I'm slowly growing to like it myself. I have to admit though, at first I thought, why didn't they get to Ian Somerhalder to do the lead role when he looks better than the guy playing Stefan but I also finally sort of understood why.

I think Ian definitely fits right in the role of Damon and so is the guy for Stefan, plus he looks really better with Nina Dobrev. Also, still comparing, I adore Elena much, much better than Bella although sometimes I swear Bella's the best female character around. By the way, just so you know, I'm only at the fourth episode as of the moment.

I'm watching it online 'cause the CD drive here at my mom's computer doesn't really cooperate. I actually had a hard time watching it online since I don't really understand how Torrent works and similar stuff like that. I only got to watch recaps at first of the episodes at YouTube, then some clips of it, and now finally, the whole episodes.

I don't really think I'm the only one having the same problem so I'm going to share with you guys the site and hopefully, you'll pass the word around. Just a tip though. If you actually go to the site, you'll discover it has some sort of thumbnails of places where you can watch the series for free. I suggest you go for those under loombo or frogmovz.

Credit for the picture above go to this fan resource site for The Vampire Diaries.